Huh? What?
Why would you do this to me?
Wait- why do I do this to me?
I'm not downing
I'm drowning
With stars in the roof (oh fuck, that's the sky)
Holes in the walls
People walking through
The blacking and the falls

The concrete's cold
I can't say I'm numb
My face can still feel and
My knees are red-rugged
I'm not sure if that's blood or sweat
It’s not even midnight yet

You grab my arm
You lift me up
To others, good intentions
But that's just not your cup (of tea?)
Why do you even want me?
I can't consent but you don't seem to mind
What goes down behind closed doors
What goes on we tend to forget

It hurts a little more than the last
I don't know the time
I don't really care
You always know where to find me
Trap me, bind me
Why do I always end up here?
How could you? Why would you?
I'm one to be taken advantage of but

It feels so slow
I just want to go
The doors right there
But I can't seem to leave
Rusted red paint
Golden handle
If I could only reach I could get away
From this scandal

Now I'm sure it's blood
Mixed with who knows what
The bruises are burning and the scars just lit up
I'm actually crying
When did it all go wrong?
Why am I like this and is there a cure?
Shoes, dress, whatever I can manage
Tripping, screaming, slurring
Don't catch me, please

I think that was glass
I'm pretty sure now
The shards hurt like a bitch but it's minor by far
Fall down the steps,
Stilettos behind
Adrenaline pumping and I'm not sure where I'm going
Four blocks, five
Is he chasing?

A jerk of the wrist and a
Cry of pain
Please don't let him get me again
I'm sick I'm sick
I get it now but I can change
Someone help, anyone?
Pulling free I'm sure I fractured something
Screaming incoherent slurs
Stubbing toes and tripping turns
Four blocks, five blocks, twenty more
Lead me straight to your front door

Please be home though the light's off
On my knees, beg, cough
When the door opens I can't help but fall in
I'm pretty sure what he's panicking about
I must be a mess
I smile and laugh because tomorrow's going to suck
But as long as I can't feel it now
Let's hope it lasts
Pick me up, carry me
Your way too kind, you know that?

You brought every first aid kit in the house, didn't you?
I just need to sleep it off.
We'll deal with everything else in the morning
I'm not sure if you slept that night
But I for one was out like a light
In the morning it wasn't so bad
You play doctor pretty well
And now I get a good scolding over breakfast?
Expected, though I'm still not sure why you even care
And you’re not going to let me leave
Though, the thought of leaving here isn’t pleasant
I wouldn't mind staying a while
I've got enough madness for two

You just smile and care
And love and fawn and why the hell you do that
I will probably never know
But as sanity returns I don't really care
It's nice to have a softer pair of fingers
Running through my hair